一些有趣的人生观

每段人生都会有起有落，没经历过失败与波折，就不叫人生，而是一幅没色彩的拼图，拼完后就悄悄地离开这世界。这样的人生有趣吗？人总要真正跌过，然后能重新振作才叫成功，对吧？而且人通常在大落后，他往后的人生就会顺风顺水。

since i got ntg better to do now, y not let me just share tis. tis is how i think all the time, there must be a point where i will fall! u will think how weird m i rite? where got ppl expect him/herself to fail somethg in their life 1 rite? in tis society, every1 will just work out their best to prevent failure, but how come i got such a funny thinking? i m waiting for my failure to approach me! lolz...

since young, my life is always good, no doubt, my parent did a good job, grown up a 怪胎 successfully. i din fail any exam, i did well in most of my exams including a few acca papers even i din really study hard sometime. then here comes tis weird thinking, i was thinking, if everythg is still going so good, meaning i will face tat "failure" in my career life? oh come on, the consequences will be much serious! i dun wan! is it becoz of tis, i m letting myself to fail my acca as if no tomorrow? if so, i must really "switch tis off", i wan to pass! i must study not according to mood anymore, 1 month left only~

then when i shared tis with a fren, one feels tat tis is quite meaningful, good in encouraging ppl who faced failure in their life like me in the sense tat i FAILed before, everythg will be better! hope tat when tis "dark age" of my life is passed by this coming june, everythg will be better in the future, god bless me~~

updates

headache, headache, headache, din sleep enuf last nite...... i realised tat i havent been updating my blog for some time, ops, i m getting lazy as well, he he he. actually, dunno y, time is just passing fast nowadays, god is trying to be good to me, sending me to my judgement day asap? release my suffer earlier? haha, seriously nonsense! yeah, whenever i got thing to write, i got no time, but when i got time to do so, i forgotten wat i wanted to write, and dun have such feeling to write the same thing again.

wat had i done recently? hmm, ntg much and i feel like i m wasting my life recently while others r working hard to persue their dreams, their careers. i din study much, din help much with my parent's work, (note: din help much, not din help at all hehe) and skipped class for ntg altho i just did it once tis sem. shd i be proud of it then? haha, surely not...

supposingly, i should be in mentakab rite now but the celaka furniture shop, wan to do my business yet i hav to suit their time, m i too good to be bullied? now when i think bek oni notice tat y i so stupid, lolz. wat is the logic behind? where is my so called consumer right? ya, i dun think this is practiced in malaysia. one glance at my hall, hmmm, typical guy's house, besides messy, it is still messy hoho. and where is my room door? -.-" it had been months since i start looking for suppliers, sweat...

time is getting near to july, it will be 6 months since i come bek from london, and yet, i achieved nothing, haih~~ wat kind of life will i live by tat time? (starts worrying edi...) my answer is NO IDEA! after 3 times of interview, only i realised tat my "value" is not more than 2k, how come i m tat cheap? ACCA wor! so many ppl out there tot tat ACCA grad will hav a "bright" future, say how good la, how grand la, how high ppl pay acca grad la. oh come on, wat a crap! or is it becoz i havent really grad yet, just like the light bulb is a bit loose, not "bright" enough?

exam~ it is exam period nowadays, most of my friends r having their exams while i m still relaxing myself like nothing gonna happen, revise only when i got mood. i need some stress from exam ler, but i cant feel any YET! gets numb facing exam edi? hmmm, suddenly i feel tat i cant let myself be a student any longer or i m just burning my parent's money. supposingly i graduated 1 yr ago, working hard towards my 1st pail of gold edi 1. but wat m i doing now? haha, no eye see myself edi. i think the most precious thing i got in return of my failure in examinations is the frenship tat i lost previously and a chance to "burn money" oversea. ha, at least something. m i trying to console my broken heart? maybe~~

HSBC

i went for the 2nd interview at hsbc today, i reckon this is a very good employer, just its name itself is good enuf, at least if u tell ppl that ur former employer is hsbc, u got credit. however, there will always be pros and cons in every decision.

Cons:
1) working period is 4pm til 1am ( follow UK's time )
2) pure data entry job which require only SPM qualification
3) pay = RM1900 <-- attractive? absolutly NOT
4) public holiday folo UK, meaning no CNY!!
5) no social life! ppl go out, i m working; i wan to go out, every1 will be working =.="

Pros:
1) 26 days pay leave including 8 days UK public holiday
2) dun need to wake up early
3) dun need to jam
4) very near my house
5) got 2 types of increment ( 6 months assessment increment and yearly increment )

Seriously i m a lil disappointed after listening to the job description... How should i decide? time will tell again?

故地重游

amongst so many trips to penang, tis time is the best ever, coz i found new yummy food, not those i took every year!

Penang Hill

Nice Ice Kacang is found! i din take photo of this coz i had destroyed it's attractive outlook once it is served to me! cant wait to swallow it! :D~~ then there come the famous char kuey teow as my main course for my lunch.

a glance on it, i m already get attracted; a smell on it, my saliva start dripping; one bit on it, i cant forget it's taste already~~

after a delicious meal, my family and i explore around the hill, we went for jungle tracking and take photos with snakes~~

it's skin is smooth! smoother than a lot of gals out there lolz...

then at nite, we went to end of the world- a place near seaside to hav seafood as dinner. oww, it is really an awesome meal, dishes included:

1) freshy oyster with lemon + tobasco (chilli)
2) Cheese baked lobster - the cheese on it is fattening, creamy, milky and last but not least YUMMY!
3) 宫宝虾膏
4) deep fried taufu - under the crispy skin is a fresh, white, juicy taufu! one bite on it, the juice splash out. oww, how come no1 can cook such taufu here~~
5) fried sotong
6) one mee and one meehun

sry, but i really forgot to take photos until i hav finish eating XD Lastly, i found the best "the ship" in mayb malaysia, it is on the beach, and it's exterior is exactly like a ship, hope tat i will hav a chance to hav my meal there~~

哀悼

昨天是我外婆的死祭，意味着一年又过去了。可能我是冷血的吧，老实说，我并没对她的去世感到太难过，就不会是那种痛不欲生的感觉。人与人之间就是这样，一旦少联络，少交谈，就算是亲戚，也不会比经常和你联络，与你没有血缘关系的好朋友亲密。一提起外婆去世，我就会不由己地想起我错过了热浪岛之旅！两者好像都已挂钩似的。。。会不会是遗憾作祟？在这么悲伤的日子里，我竟然还想着玩，太不像话了吧！莉说得对，你们都是一些会令人上瘾的“白粉”！这遗憾恐怕要跟随我一辈子了。 >.<

提起悲伤嘛，我到不觉得全是。对，失去亲人，应该很伤心，但我觉得我外婆却是得到了解脱，如果你晓得她在世时的生活，你就会和我有同感。在我外婆跌倒之前，她比谁都壮，吃得好，睡得好，节目还多姿多彩的。但好景不长，在她跌倒第一次，她就失去了一半的行动能力，出门都得带轮椅，以便她累了能让她歇会儿。可是不知怎么搞的，她在去世前几个月，又在洗手间摔了一交，令她完全失去了两条腿，不是被砍了，而是有等于没有。。。

我舅舅和姨姨都有叫她去和他们一起住，好让他们照顾，可是老人家始终有点固执，坚持住老家，人就是不喜欢改变。好啦，住在老家，没有人能经常带她出去，每天都做三等公民：等吃，等睡，等死。这真的不能怪谁，毕竟大家都得“找吃”，这就是现实又残酷的社会，总不会有公司会雇用你，却又每天让你放假照顾你的母亲吧。结果，外婆就这样悄悄地在睡梦中走了，潇潇洒洒地找我外公去了。我外婆养有七儿四女，有两个儿子及一个女孙比她先去了，但大部分都事业有成，也嫁了好丈夫，总算今生无悔了，外婆，您就安息吧。。。

Connie's bday celebration's 花边新闻

Since the main cast will blog for her own celebration, i wont write bout it then. but there r yet somethg worth mentioning:

1) got 2 person ffk! since u 2 so bad, i oso dun wan be kind to both of u, pay me! i m chasing for payment in public wakakaka
2) I got bullied! they keep cheat me to eat! my weight~~ 我的心真的受伤了 T.T
3) got minor food poisoning, been to toilet 5 times today -.-" dunno issit due to the cake turns sour
4）our mong king wan to slot in the parking ticket into the slot where it accept cash when paying for the parking
5) miss greedy dun even know wat movie we r watching until the movie is ended, LMAO
6) Hsin-wern said i grew thin again! he is really honest :P
7) Yay, i can sing at last! after 1 month not singing~ but voice no good edi, sigh~~~
8) Found a nice western food restaurant in 1U, named Bakerzin, must go for its dessert next time ^^

feel giddy edi, need to rest earlier today, update nex time when i get bek from penang :)

两梳蕉

yeah, tis is the 2 comb of bananas i mentioned in the title, seems normal, indeed it is just some normal bananas which will get rotten after 3 days (Mr patient, plz finish those banana! dun waste it, lolz!) but wat i wan to mention is the "meaning" behind it!

yesterday, which was a lovely friday, when i asked every1 in mentakab to come out for a drink, i received tis message: "he had his medicine n slept le. caught a flu", i was shocked! so sudden huh? then somethg pop up in my fren (L)'s mind when v r discussing wat to do today via sms - pay him a visit! but then, when time is up and we r just about to depart to tis patient's house, L told me tat he din pick up his phone. so when i called to his house, his mum told me he had fall asleep AGAIN! haha, it was my mistake, i din inform him b4 hand, my bad...

so, we decided to hav a drink during tea time while waiting for him to wake up. while we r toking, the patient finally woke up and smsed me. then we decided to continue our plan, since tis is the 1st time we pay a visit to some1's house while 1 is sick~ fresh experience for me! but, we cant go empty to visit a patient rite? like wat those dramas teach, we went to buy the bananas above, lol! we r insane once again- 带两梳蕉去探病. noe wat we do? 3 of us (L, C and me) played big2 with the patient while we r eating rojak biscuit. he can just see us eating and he cant eat, pity him~ tis is also y we bought banana haha! actually we found tat the patient looked better rite b4 we left. laughter can cure flu? then y we need a doctor then? haha~

well well, i was kinda busy past few days, busy helping my parents with their business during day time, so was kinda tired for me to post somethg new. tis is the latest insane thingy we've done, hope u enjoy reading tis~~

Job Fair

I attended a job fair on sunday, which is named "Career & Training Fair 08", held at mid valley exhibition centre. tis is suppose to be the largest job fair where many big companies are attending to attract potential human resource. i went there with 2 good frens of mine, all of us will be graduating by june ( hopefully la ), and we need to get a job as soon as we r bek from Bangkok, tis is the ideal situation la. actually, it suppose to be 2 more coming, but 1 have exam by tmr and another 1 is with her parents in kl.

supposingly, there r over hundreds of companies and we shd prepare around tat figure of resume so tat every company will hav 1 copy of our resume, higher chance of getting interviewed! but i just feel unnecessary when i was photostating at home and the situation proved me right. we reached mv at around 3, but then we din go for the fair str8, we lined up to buy movie tickets 1st, coz we r planning to watch a movie b4 we go home. and at last, we watched it at 4.45pm coz we tot tat the job fair is until nite lor. our initial planning was going bek to the fair once we finish our movie, but! the god like dun like me to work outside, it is fooling me! the fair is closed when we go bek there again, gosh~~~ tis made me just able to sign up for a few companies like: Hong Leong Grp, HSBC, Petronas, EON bank etc

one funny thing to share when we r there: when ppl ask 1 of us, wat is ur qualification now, one of us answered "post grad", i was like "uh? when did u finish ur master? lolz!" by tat time, but we clarified it by we left tat vendor :X

i learned 1 lesson today - dun enjoy urself halfway of the thing u r doing, unless u r very sure u can continue it later. ( in fact we really tot we can continue de~~ )

thoughts under the gloomy skies

清明时节雨纷纷，路上行人欲断魂~ once i wake up, the sky is again dark, not really dark, but seems gloomy. it had been raining heavily these few days, the water level of klang river has raised a lot, just dunno will there be a day when KL is flooded then every1 will hav holidays, but hopefully not, i m staying in kl... thought bout cheng meng, many ppl asked me the same question:" y dun make it on saturday/sunday when there r more relatives around?" well, i m not sure is it purely becoz tis is the trend of my family, or i m having some stubborn elders, aiks. since they r my elders, i can just respect their decision speechlessly. it is kinda inconvenient for some ppl to get bek on the "real" day, probably some need to skip class, some already arranged other things to do yet hav to give up, they r just tat inconsiderate sometimes. 家家有本难念的经, probably tis is mine~~ i had discussed tis issue with another good fren of mine, shd we respect their decision while they r not taking into consideration of our convenience? after tonnes of argument, i still hav to do as they say to qualify as a 孝顺子孙. yah, tat's me, dare to say, dun dare to do. probably wat i get from this argument is i hav released all my negative feelings...

ok, finished the gloomy part, now come a happy one - our june trip is confirmed at last! thx for cooperations from all participants tat makes tis trip successful. i know it is a tough decision to make, there r still many unseen problem awaits since there r still 2 months plus till the departure date, but honestly, u guys r so great to come out with a decision tis fast! i m really proud of u guys, everythg is decided in 24 hours, especially for those who r facing "problems" yet they r going! dun worry, if there r still upcoming problems, dun worry, just tell us wat is it and we will settle it for u~ here comes a golden quote from my mum : "problems r to be solved, not worry!" and "if there isnt any problem arises, i will fail to perform my role as a problem solver" :-)

probably tis is the very last trip for us for future few months or maybe years, so lets have fun till the max. y? i oso dunno, just got such feelings. graduations r taking place and tis indicates it's time to change. whether it is changing to be better or worse, no1 will know until then. wat i can say now is, let's just c...

The last 1 leaving?

probably, it is, for those who r leaving for further education, but not for those who will leave for their future career. looking at him, i tot of myself during last sept, it was an experience tat i cant forget for life, and they r all well recorded here. however, mine was considered a surprising! i din plan it for yrs, it was just merely 5 months b4 i depart tat i got the intention to go. altho both cases r different, yet both of us r tough enuf, not to drop tears in front of family and friends, yeah, we shd b proud of it! but, tis indicates a failure to our mission as well, haha, it is conflicting edi...

y we fail? emm, mayb he is too busy, he dun really have much time with us, we barely got chance to tok much. the oni precious chance for us to tok a lot was while we r walking from KFC to "J" counter, we shared bout wat we did b4 going to airport, toking some crap and i started to sense 沉重 in his heart, it was just 30 mins left b4 he has to go down "the escalator". i m just guessing thro his expression, correct me if i m wrong hehe... just 3 of us from 林氏家族 got the chance to walk with him. y? coz we "seng" ma, we wrote the farewell card 1st, then we r free edi keke. oh well, i m just finding a chance to praise myself XD~~ actually i dunno y others spend so much time on writing tat, sure 38 wan to see wat others write 1st tat make the process slow down, it took us almost 1 hr to get everyone's writing to be on tat card, swt~~

then, there r some interesting events happened as well. erm, i think i dun wan to leave any comment on tat, coz really dunno whose fault is tat, i will let some1 else who knows more blog bout it.

lastly, i would like to thanks my fren for the photo he left it for me, i have the photo as well, but tis 1 is with words from him which made it much much more meaningful. some1 do ask me :"every1 who left do leave somethg for us, y u din?" lolz, how shd i answer tis question? coz i just left for 4 months? coz it's not the trend by tat time? argh.... dun care la, over edi :P