another insane night

How shd i describe our gang? insane? hmm, dun really suit perfectly. once a while there will be an insane outting, like last nite ( 16/3/08 ). it shd be a simple 6 person's dinner, but dunno y, it ended up with a mini gathering with 10 heads in total in a small Korean Restaurant which i forgot the name haha!

we dated at 7:30pm eventually, but due to some reason, a few person made me waited in the car for almost 45 mins and we r only managed to reach there at around 8:15pm, gosh, i think they just cant change their habit of being late...after we went in, we were the only customer there, mayb too late? or it is difficult to be found? coz it is situated on 2nd floor and dun hav a big and attractive sign board. this place suit us a lot, as u noe, "we r oways the noisy 1" according to miss kelly hoo. ya, tis time v din get scolded coz there was no 1 there to scold us haha...

some comments on food ( dunno those name at all :P ):
1. chicken with sesame on it - tis dish looks quite similar to chinese food, it is delicious and tis shd be the one easiest to be accepted by every1.

2. chicken ( korean style ) - it is sweet, sour, and a bit hot as well, cooked with big onion, carrot, chilli etc. tis dish could be known as typical korean food. not much comment on it, not bad tho not too good to me.

3. grilled pork belly meat (五花肉) - they just grill those meats on the hot plate without marinating it, so it dont hav other taste. we were taught to clip those meat into a 生菜 then add in some side dishes depends on how u like it. kinda interesting, but not new to me, coz i like to eat raw vegetables like salad, cucumber and tomatoes as well...

4. korean style fish - oh yeah, tis shd be the best dish overall! looks a lot like the 2nd dish mentioned above, but tis 1 it is with soup, which is seriously fantastic. i finished the whole pot (pot for 4) after the rest r full and stopped eating. since i din eat rice, no carbohidrate, and it is just fish and some vege, so no worries, hehe...

not to forget tis, the main reason most of us din eat rice is becoz the rice is worth 5 bucks and it is just a small bowl of it, swt... but owverall, it is yet too expensive, just RM14.50 ea.

after dinner, we went for movie (spiderwick - a fantasy movie which is kinda excited and it ended very funny! cant stop laughing haha... but it is rated as lame by a few "serious" person). we suppose to go bek after that but when we look at our watch, it was just 12:45am! yeah, the nite is still young and lastly we decided to watch another comedy named "ah long pvt ltd" which is rated as 赞 by many! oh gosh, tis is much much more funnier than "follow the law". we laugh through all 2 hrs coz their conversation is really "classic" haha! there is 1 tat i cant forget:

that part is about the mum is bringing the female lead to a speed dating, but the female lead is wearing like a "dai go" and the dating is ended up the male side run away. then here come the following conversation:
m: 你看你，连要死的人都不要你。都叫你学曼联的啦。
F: 学曼联干嘛？！
m: 放"半粒"!

mayb it is difficult to imagine tat, but if u got time, just watch tis! tis is recomemded especially when ur mood is down, it will cheer u up from the beginning of the movie!

noe, wat's so insane on tat nite now? ya, we had a movie marathon during midnite! and mr liew, the 1 who ask every1 out tat nite said "你们这班人神经的!" when we bought the 2nd movie's ticket haha! his eye was so blur edi by tat time. and i answered him "我们向来都是这样的啦，一想到要做什么，马上就做". tis is how we behaved all the time, full of surprise, full of fun! so if u r busy the nex day, better run b4 u r "trapped"! haha...

"Do Die Me"

i was a very lazy person, especially doing housework, y? coz there is a maid whose realation with me is as close as my sister. she did all the housework for 20+ yrs, and my house is as tidy most of the time becoz of her hard work, thx to her a lot. i seldom do housework even i was staying in kl, tat's y my house is kinda dusty previously until after i m bek from UK, everythg changed. tis house is kept tidily by my younger bro and tis motivates me a lot to continue to keep it clean and here comes the word "do die me!!", if u cant get wat it means, ahem... doing housework is seriously tiring, especially mopping and sweeping. my unit here is just 900 square feet, kinda small, but it is enuf for me to sweat a lot. seriously i dunno how my ah jie do it for 26 yrs ! i think i m just 娇生惯养 >.<

however, tis is not the 1st time i m doing housework for sure, i m still not tat useless! but tis is the 1st time i swept the floor with tonnes of hair. yeah, 1st impression of mine is, these gals r not healthy at all haha. is it really normal to drop so much hairs in 2 days?? i wonder... even in bathroom, those hairs r enuf to clog the hole for the water to flow, can imagine tat? ouch! 1st time i sweep the floor, there r more hairs than dust! some advice from me: gals, please take care, u r still young, life is still long, health is very important k?

since tis is not the 1st time i m doing housework, y will i put up tis post then? becoz there is a devil behind me who motivate me to post tis up. his intention is to tell them tat they dirtied my house, wan to show how dirty they r and they need to clean it up nex time b4 they go lolz. well, frankly speaking, tis is all his idea, i never tot of it ok? just to make every1 clear, and i choose to betray him haha! oh tiring, time to sleep~

Recent updates

bek to mentakab, helping my parents with their biz while enjoying my 1 week holidays. they r happy to c me bek, parents r always like tis, so come bek often if u r able to do so. but there r still a thorn in my heart even i tried not to think bout it anymore. they keep persuading me not to find job, just study hard now, 2 more months oni, then help them with their jobs if i really cant get a job in kl, wat shd i do then?

Malaysia's economy is moving towards recession, KLCI ( kuala lumpur composite index ) dropped 120+ points ( approx 10% ) on the monday after malaysia had drastic political change. however, it is able to pick up around 50-60 points these 2 days, not too bad yet... the recession is estimated to last till end of 2009, so grab ur money hard now, buy shares/lands when they r cheap later~ however, it's always easier to say than do, where the hell shd i get the money from? and when is the period when these things r priced at lowest? these are the rumours spreading around since end of last yr.

when i was having lunch with my dad and a bunch of uncle this afternoon, they r toking bout recent election. BN lost perak and penang for the 1st time in the history. although every1 is clapping their hands, stating tis is a nice lesson for BN being arrogant all the while, but there r still a grp of ppl who will suffer from this result - businessman, especially those business tat need govt's approval, or any other things tat hav to deal with govt. the govt has changed for a few states, every procedure will change as well. let's say, if a timber businessman paid the officer money, and wat he gave the businessman is just a verbal promise that the businessman will get these much of trees. so who shd the business gona claim those trees from as the officer in charge will no longer sit in the place. according to those uncles, this is Y many businessman gone bankrupt when there is a change in govt in every state. tis had happened in terengganu around 10 yrs ago when BN lost terengganu to PAS. no wonder every business man will only vote for BN...

my house's internet is still disconnecting like no 1 cares, seriously irritating! F*** you TM! i swear i wont use TM's product whenever there is a better 1...

My bro's wedding - 1 word to describe : MESS! oh gosh, it is crashed with another relative's wedding. wat can we do? y shd we always be the 1 who 让步？Y? every1 like to bully my family, r we too kind to be bullied? i dun like it! but i can just take it quietly. the major and only disadvantage of having a huge family staying close: too many things to be considered, swt...

Election Day 08

8/3/08 - tis is a special day for women, but of course, ntg great for me previously, coz i dun really know wat r they celebrating. but for tis yr, it is the election day as well. for those who dont know, malaysia's election is held every 4-5 years, and tis is the 3rd election i know out of my 22 yr's life. I m 22 rite now, ah, shd be 21 yrs and 4 months old which is more accurate, i m supposed to be qualified for voting this round, but due to my birth date falls on yr end, i cant vote even i had registered. u know la, malaysia, everythg is slow. not to complain much, coz i found tat UK's working speed is not tat fast as well :X and tis is the reason we r able to go for wasa queen cruise trip, we dont need to vote for this round! but not all la, coz some, they can vote but they din do wat a good citizen shd do. it's true, i m refering to those who r elder than me for months, but yet dont feel interested in politics.

ntg special on day time, coz we spent all time sleeping at my place after the tiring yet interesting (although i feel like cheated my casino :P ) trip. but then at nite, during the time period of 9:30 pm- 12 am, when the results r being announced while some are being recalculated due to certain reasons, i discovered some new things. we r playing lamy with 2 sets of cards since we dun hav mahjong and most importantly, we cant go out at nite due to there might be riots around KL tat will endanger our lifes. it was a relaxing moment i will call it, chit chating with true frens, laugh together, play together, don need to think a lot, everythg goes in slow, calm, and peaceful pace. i think this is wat we called the ideal life, the feeling was just so comfortable...

ops, too much descriptions on this, now i shd focus on wat i discovered. for yrs, we dun discuss anythg bout politics, and so i dunno they actually care bout it. wat surprised me a lot is their attitudes, their excitements towards the result. tis is wat i oways heard while i m playing lamy:
1: wa! BN lose the whole Penang edi!
2: oh shit, will BN lose too much? i dun wan to change government!
3: oh yeah, BN lost 10 out of 11 seats to DAP for wilayah...
4: huiyo, PAS won Kedah.
5: wa, BN almost lose Malacca.
6: YAY, Samyvelu lose at last! time for him to get down oso
7: OMG, Pak Lah just win a lil
9: shit, Khairi play cheat issit? lose at 1st but win after recalculate
bla bla bla......

this is quite a new experience for me, coz tis is the 1st time i m passing election day with my frens. somehow, i still feel we r awesome, coz we can pass time doing anythg...

没用的孩子

一早醒来，精神还不错，证明了发泄以后，确实能让一个人心静，睡个好觉。今朝，我还是一样，洗刷完毕，就坐在电脑面前读好友的网上日记，而令我能在一早就这么心酸的就是这篇。读了那篇文章，我的头脑顿时停了几秒，怎么会有这么巧的事呢？它勾起了这22年以来父母怎么对待我，而我却又给了他们什么？这应该是导致我最近这么愧疚的原因吧。。。

我爸很少跟我出去，也很少和我谈心，是不是每个父亲都是如此？为了维护父亲的威严吗？而我妈，不理是公事私事，我会经常陪她到处走，因为我觉得这会减轻她的工作负担。但一直到最近，尤其是在成绩放榜后，我才发现，我连最基本能令父母为我感到骄傲，高兴的事，我都没能做好。每逢走在街上，都会有不少人称赞我是个孝顺孩子，就因为陪伴父母，就算是孝顺吗？那些路人当然不知道我会经常和母亲吵架，甚至对她发脾气。我很过分吧？而且在发完脾气，就连说声对不起都没勇气，更别说平时会打电话回去问候他们了！有时候，我会很想抱着他们俩，跟他们说“对不起，请原谅我的任性”。但不知为什么，我总是开不了口。就因为是亚洲人，比较含蓄的关系吗？

天下的父母对孩子，应该都是不求回报的吧。我父母就是如此，他们总把最好的一切都给我，有时候，我真的觉得我活的比他们好，比他们幸福。到底我凭什么获得这么好的一切？我根本不知道我有没有曾经令他们开心一秒！有人曾经告诉我，答案很简单，就因为我是他们的孩子。老实说，就因为这句话，我一度愣了几天。我也曾经因为这句话，我发誓会孝顺我父母一辈子，不再对他们发脾气，一切都听他们的。但没过几天，我又“旧病复发”，打回原型了，我觉得自己好失败啊！就连这么简单的事情我都办不好，更别说要孝顺他们一辈子啦！不知道为什么，最近发生在我身上的事情，总一再地打击我的自信心，我就要崩溃了啦！

长得这么大，我还是第一次有想避开他们的感觉，我一见到他们，我就会不知所措。他们的无微不至，只会令我增加愧疚感。我已经很努力压抑自己，真不知能撑多久！希望我能尽快找到一份好工，尽早消除我内心这份罪恶感，尽早能与他们真心相对，享受天伦乐。

WHEN!

WHEN will i graduate?
WHEN will i get a job?
WHEN will the stupid guilty feeling get lost?
probably WHEN i achieve the 2 things above?
but WHEN is the date?

i hate my life to hav so many uncertainties, i like to control my life, everythg shd go along with my plan but my plan seems not working at all. everythg started to deviate since my 1st failure in my life! and tis is WHEN mr "guiltiness" starts to build up its castle deep in my heart. i got tis feeling WHENever i spend money even on food, WHEN i do somethg i like and sometime even WHEN i m having deep thoughts b4 i sleep. i wish i could live like those ppl who takes failure easy, but just like one of my fren said, scorpio tends to think a lot himself/herself, i cant control myself not to think so much. ntg can stop me from thinking, the brain is mine and i think tis shd be the source of my white hairs. every1 is growing old everyday at different pace, some is growing slow, since they got ntg to think, ntg to worry and vice versa. obviously, ppl like me will grow old extremely fast, few yrs later, latest by 30, half of my hairs should hav dropped ( as predicted by my uncle who say himself good at "people viewing" ) and another half will be in grey colour. oh, disgusting!! dare not imagine tat...

so, i think the oni way to keep my hair "alive" is to keep myself as busy as possible, since i will hav no time to think bout nonsense, brilliant? my ideal working time would be 9-9, then it will form a perfect sleep-work-wleep-work routine. tis is actually a real life case happened on some1 i know, he oways complain tat tis routine is way too boring. but dont u think tis is the actual life every1 is facing? consider of changing job? does it really help? everyjob is almost the same! and jobs r hard to get recently, dunno is it my prob or every1 is facing such prob. i got no idea since i just start to step into tis society.

well, writing blog is also a way to relief one self ( taught by a close fren ) besides crying as shown in dramas. at least after i expressed myself, i oways feel better. i m just trying means and ways to hav myself a good sleep, hope this will help~ good nite to me~

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1st post of the month and it's bout u - today is the day another good fren of mine leave us for her better future, i did mention bout her at my previous post in the personal thoughts. although i cant accompany her past few days, but at least i went to airport today, saying goodbye to her and gave her a hug b4 she went down tat escalator which brings joy and sadness to peoples. joy for those who r going for tour and those going abroad for better opportunity in study or work, but sad for famalies and friends of those ppl who r leaving. mayb i shdnt use the word sad, they r leaving for their better future, it shd be know as reluctant i think, and we shd feel happy for them as well. i was once the person who is leaving and now i m and will only be the one who send ppl off, supposing la, unless there will b some unpredictable changes in future, hee. felling reluctant to leave? ah, i dunno how it feels, coz i was leaving with joy and excitement! wat i had was just missing every1 a lot, the time i left, we still dun hav links of blogs and dun hav facebook grps! ppl tends to neglect wat they hav and will oni appreciate when they feel tat they will lose it. but one thing 1 would like to praise ourselves is we dun do gatherings purely becoz we might lose 1 fren in future, but we r doing everythg so tat they remember there r still one gang of fren in their warm homeland. in finance point of view, we can somehow known it as investment, coz we r expecting this fren to return, expecting help IF we need help 1 day. haha, i think i m too materialistic, asking for returns in everythg i did, sry for tat, but tis is how i m educated hehe. well dun say help, coz if need help, we might be in bad shape d. lets say we r expecting he/she will bring joy to us? hardly fit in rite? today, ntg much happens, not like the day sheng's leaving, so i can just express some thoughts of mine here. everytime i got a fren leave me, i will hav tonnes of thoughts occur in my mind. not to say those who r not close to me, coz i wont even bother them! a bit too harsh? well, i just dun like to be fake in front of anybody. i once heard a theory: "if u treat some1 well, u shd let him/her know" aka 假仁假义, it is really useful in biz world. to be frankly, i m learning hard to do so, do i look scary now? keke... however it is, i dun think this theory shd apply on frenship, especially to close frens. is it becoz i dunno how to act, and i dun hav many close frens? 10 fingers r enuf to spell their name out. woops seems tat i had deviated from my topic haha, suddenly too high :P oh ya, we do take photos through webcam and talked happily b4 she left, it is like the god is creating an extra hour for us to get along, if not we will just say goodbye to her once we reach airport. y? we reached too late and she doesnt actually expect we will go although she is able to guess it already. y i remember tis? coz i took a few photos which i think i m quite handsome there haha, refer to facebook, coz i dun hav tat photo myself. lastly, to the person i concerned in this post, i think i had wish u enuf, study hard, come bek with proud! no matter when is the date u come bek, we will still welcome u with open arms. remember to hug every1 when u 1st met every1 at the time u r bek again, tis will show how much u concern a person :-)